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“I told you so,” trigger warning SI
I know Julie Fast says that it’s common for people with bipolar to have suicidal thoughts that she calls “cloud thoughts” that drift in and out, and while they are to be taken seriously, it is a normal part of the bipolar experience, and to take necessary precautions. I am thankful to have read her…
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Mixed Episode
A bipolar mixed episode has come on very quickly. I was feeling depressed this morning. The dog wanted to take a walk at 5:00 in the morning, he is such an early riser! So we did that, but then I went back to bed and slept until 11:00am. I could feel the weight of depression,…
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online therapy
I am trying to recall the number of therapists I have had over the years, and I am having a hard time with my memory; I can only think of four. I have had therapists who specialize in Cognitive Behavioral therapy, Dialectal Behavioral therapy, and talk therapy. I have benefited from each of them at…
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Happy Holidaze
Marshmallow snowman floats in a dreamy hot chocolate. He looks pretty happy. I wonder if it’s a bit like being in a sauna; somehow you feel it’s good for you, but it’s just getting a little too hot. That’s probably a pretty good way to describe my holidays – not the weather, because it is…
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Stitches Showing by Jenna Lasby
Originally posted on VAGABOND CITY: When I was four, I told everyone that my mother was a stuffed rabbit, but only because my father told me this himself. He is a toymaker, and the night after my mother died, he gave it to me and said this was her now. This was where she had…
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Music Soothes the Soul
I stumbled upon a band on Facebook that really lifts my spirits and speaks to my soul. They are The Brothers Comatose, and today I listened to several of their songs and it brought me much comfort and joy after some sad news. I learned that a blogger I have followed and admire greatly lost…
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Stop Making Art
“Stop Making Art” is the message trickling daily like a babbling brook through my brain. Once in a while it will scream it. I don’t really blame bipolar or medication, I think it’s more of a passive aggressive response to the fact that when I make art, I spread out and make a mess, and…
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Ellen Forney: Bipolar and Creativity
I just stumbled upon this video for the first time, and am super excited to share it. Ellen Forney talks about her diagnosis of Bipolar disorder, her reluctance to take medication for fear that it may dampen her creativity, and her journey to being both stable and creative. Since my brain is spinning a little…
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Cloud Thoughts
Things that came together. I had a car accident and we both thought we had the green light. She was lost in thoughts of a grandchild who had died a few days before, I was wondering about the car behind me that was taking up two lanes. I was looking in my rearview mirror (the…
Moody Paper 