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Brain vs. Mind
Welcome to the wacky world of brains! Natasha Tracy wrote a blog post entitled You Can’t Change Your Thoughts or Feelings (No Matter How Much CBT You Do) The title alone threw me for a loop. What was the purpose of CBT then, if not to change our thoughts and feelings? I was eager to read on. Tracy explains…
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Polar Warriors
There are times in life when you stumble across something in a haphazard way, and it turns out to be an inspiring moment. This is true for my discovery of Polar Warriors, the videos site belonging to Robert Whittaker. In his video “7 Milestones of Bipolar Disorder,” he says so many things that I relate to, that…
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Stairs
I have built the stairs leading up to the air we breathe. I’m not holding my breath anymore, because I’ve talked about what is uncomfortable to talk about. I have reached the surface and it feels divine. I have been in touch with my therapist and my psychiatrist. I have read the words of Natasha…
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Wall of Words
Day 1: Today as I was driving to work, I realized that I wasn’t really focused solely on the driving, but paying attention to a wall of words cascading through my brain, a voice in my head that came in loud and clear. It was telling me that I am terrible at my job and…
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Around the Edges
When I wrote The Story of Her, I was hypomanic, and freely expressing my thoughts about a unique relationship. I decided at that point to honor the time and space I am in now, and just think about my situation, and if I needed anything more. I decided that I do not. I am happy…
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Playing Around
I’ve been playing around with the Theme options on wordpress, which I am woefully ill equipped to be doing, as I am not very tech savvy. So my blog has a new look, with some missing features that will take me some time to either mourn or fix by getting some technology learnin.’ Hopefully the…
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Whenever I Fall
My dog’s name is Dez. He is a rescue dog, and when I adopted him he had a broken front leg that had healed on it’s own. His other front leg is bow-legged. When he lies down, the negative space between his paws makes a heart. He walks and runs just fine, and the vet…
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Arms Wide Open
I have been exhausted. Work has taken much of my energy, and I have wanted to write, but the things happening feel like they are not my story to tell. That may be in part because I should be feeling them deeply, but I have been somewhat disconnected from my feelings for a while, a…
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The Source of Sanity
Something is changing in my inner world. I have developed more self confidence because I have let go of a fear that I would not be able to complete an important function in my job. That others would be watching me and I would fail. But I have been pushing through the fear and succeeding,…
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Stories of Children
Don’t move. Everything will be ok. That’s how I was feeling yesterday, floating just above my anxiety about work so as not to be overwhelmed. Today was a crazy day at work, but I created some calm within the chaos by singing to the children as it was time to lay down to rest. I…
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