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After Hypomania
I am five days sober. My hypomania has calmed; I took a three hour nap today and didn’t do anything creative. But I did dig in the dirt and plant some bulbs from my mother, so that felt good. I have been reading “A Woman’s Way Through the Twelve Steps,” by Stephanie Covington. I am…
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Before and After
In an earlier post I said I would clean my desk on Monday in order to be able to make some art. I did it! Here are the before and after pictures; it’s still pretty crowded, but in the second photo there is room for paintbrushes on the top and a small canvas on the…
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Quote for Better Days Ahead
I am just leaving this here to revisit as I need it. I stumbled on Friday, so I am back to 3 days sober. It has been more difficult than I thought it would be, so I am discovering and uncovering things on this journey, and reaching out to those who are my support system.…
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Here I Am
Time for some updates! Today was the last day with students for the school year! We had a party and I was able to have some meaningful conversations with parents and kids as well. This school year went by very fast, I can’t quite believe it is over. On to summer school! I have been…
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Eight Days Sober
I feel like I quickly became an overnight alcoholic for a brief time, until I told my psychiatrist about my drinking; hearing myself explain it made it clear I wasn’t in control. I don’t know that I fit the true definition of an alcoholic, but I had some issues. I would come home from the…
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Manic Author
Last September I decided to write a children’s book. It was something I’ve researched in the past, so it didn’t come out of the blue, but the drive I had to work on it did seem like manic energy. I wrote a cute little story based on my dog Dez. While standing under a tree…
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online therapy
I am trying to recall the number of therapists I have had over the years, and I am having a hard time with my memory; I can only think of four. I have had therapists who specialize in Cognitive Behavioral therapy, Dialectal Behavioral therapy, and talk therapy. I have benefited from each of them at…
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Crazy to the Left of Me
Last night I googled “nervous breakdown” because I thought I might be having one. I was irritable, close to tears, overwhelmed and exhausted. But today I eased into each hour at work, floating above events as they passed, feeling assured that all was well. The pendulum swings back again and I am envisioning a scenario…
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A Little Taste of Mania
I had a day this week where I was feeling happy and had to ask myself if I was becoming manic. I played my favorite songs that I listened to during my last manic episode, in hopes that I could nudge a tiny taste of mania into my week. So far, I have ranged from…
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Head Just Above Water
I am amazed at the strength I am able to reach for at each moment. I assume I have finally found the right combination of medications to treat my bipolar. Still, I struggle. I have been told three times this week by different people that I am doing an amazing job at work, and I…
Moody Paper 