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Head Just Above Water
I am amazed at the strength I am able to reach for at each moment. I assume I have finally found the right combination of medications to treat my bipolar. Still, I struggle. I have been told three times this week by different people that I am doing an amazing job at work, and I…
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Silly Monsters in My Head
Hello lovely people! I have been having what I think are interesting, worrisome, but at the same time humorous brain glitches from what I think is a side effect of a new medication. The doctor told me one of the side effects common to the new pill in my cocktail is cognitive impairment. I was…
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Two Voices Silenced
I have stopped making art. When I tell people I am done making art, they don’t believe me, or they are curious as to why, but I don’t really know what to tell them. When I made art I was messy, I took up space, I had a visual voice that was loud, even if…
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Mania aftermath
It’s been a while since I’ve written, so thank you for finding your way here. It always means a lot to me that I can put words to a page and people are taking their time to read it. Today I have an icy weather day off from work, so I am going to relax…
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Two Tools for Managing Bipolar
If you are experiencing thoughts of suicide, please call 1-800-273-8225 I have two tools that I use on a regular basis to help manage my bipolar. The first comes from Natasha Tracy’s mental health blog Bipolar Burble. I love reading her blog and watching her videos. She has an unflinching perspective on living with bipolar, and…
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Writing to Discover Patterns
I have a new morning routine now that my dog wakes me up at 4:30 in the morning. I will take him for a walk, enjoying the cool, gentle breeze and warmth of the morning, feeling hopeful and happy for the day. When I bring him in, I get cozy in my bed and go…
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Recovering from bipolar depression
It’s been about two and a half years since I’ve visited this blog, and looking at the date I can understand why. Two weeks after I wrote my last entry I spiraled into a bipolar depression, having suicidal thoughts daily. They scared me and I knew I needed help, although I tried to handle it…
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When Ghosts Read Nutrition Labels
So, I’m living in an empty nest, and I love it, it’s a tiny apartment nestled in the hills; my vision for the living room is to create an art gallery. Very minimal. My brain does not love it quite as much, It recognizes the changes. The new job. The empty nest. The quiet. I…
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“Hiding Who You Are” Carbs
There are ways to have adult temper tantrums, and I am going to have one tonight in the form of a carbohydrate laden meal. Then I’ll brush myself off (ok, crash on the couch), and find some way to decide what to do when reality is vastly different from what’s in my brain, and the…
Moody Paper 