Silly Monsters in My Head

Hello lovely people! I have been having what I think are interesting, worrisome, but at the same time humorous brain glitches from what I think is a side effect of a new medication. The doctor told me one of the side effects common to the new pill in my cocktail is cognitive impairment.

I was leaving my house, bounding down the steps to my car, and when I looked at it, I didn’t recognize it at first. In my head I thought “I have a red car!” I had to pause to let my brain-brain catch up with what my brain-eyes were doing. Not that that makes any sense. My car is a pretty blue grey. I can’t remember if I’ve ever owned a red car, I don’t think so. I do know that I wanted to buy a red car years ago.

I couldn’t pull up the memory of taking a shower yesterday, even though I looked in the mirror and could tell my hair was styled and I had on make up. Gradually it came back to me. First the memory of washing my face, then combing my hair, and almost all of the process. I think showering is a bit of a right brain activity, so I was probably thinking about lots of other things, so it’s okay with me that I didn’t remember everything.

Then there was the guy waving at me enthusiastically from the driver’s seat of his pink car. I just don’t know if he was real, and up until then I could always tell that I was having a visual hallucination. I didn’t wave back, so if you were real, kind jovial sir, I am so sorry!

I have told my husband about all of my silly glitches, so he is helping me navigate and document each of the incidents so we can tell my doctor.

I always smile BIG when I hear a kindergarten teacher say to her students, “that was such a great answer, kiss your brain!” and all the kiddos put their fingers to their lips and pat their head. Yes, yes, I have kissed my brain. I am proud of how well it is navigating this journey.

4 responses to “Silly Monsters in My Head”

  1. That sounds a little scary — maybe not the shower because I think we all forget routine things, but the guy waving. Hope that stops.

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    1. I suppose if the hallucinations were more than a brief incident they would be more scary, but they come and go so quickly usually. It has improved today!

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  2. The brain is a strange creature. I like the kiss your brain thing!

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    1. The brain is a conundrum! Those kindergarteners are super cute when they are kissing their brains!

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