Sprinkling Seeds

June 17, 2023

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I have a very strong urge to write. Not do art, not participate in the online workshop “Brave at Friendship,” which I paid a pretty penny to do, not do anything but write. My moods have shifted often today and I have already written a post on adhedonia, the inability to feel pleasure or diminished pleasure. I felt I had diminished pleasure, but in the end, so what. It’s better than being manic.

Today was the start of something new. I had the urge to clean. I washed the sheets and made the bed, swept and mopped the floor, washed the shower curtain, and ran the dishwasher. I dusted some very dusty blinds, too.

All that I want and need will come in due time, I just have to put work into it here and there, like sprinkling seeds in the garden and tending to it.

I wonder if it’s raining where you are.

2 responses to “Sprinkling Seeds”

turtlewords

Jun 18, 2023 at 2:01 pm

Often things in our life are interrelated. Trying to be brave in friendship. Learning about habits that are bad for us.
I had a cleaning spree this morning too. That happens every once In awhile, and knowing that helps me not fret (as much) when I notice dust.
I used to hate it when someone trotted out the quote “when the student is ready, the teacher will appear”.
But I’ve actually had that happen recently. A really intractable issue resolved itself almost completely. It took a lot of work, but near the end, different “teachers” caught my attention, that phrased things in the right way I was ready to hear and internalize.

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Moody Paper

Jun 18, 2023 at 9:48 pm

I am happy to hear you were able to resolve your issue! I shall be on the lookout for my teachers. : )

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