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Puddle Jumping
It’s not raining outside, but I am having a “jumping in puddles” kind of day. For me that’s when it feels like a switch has turned on and I find myself actively moving through my day with sheer happiness. I am jumping from one activity to another, from sweeping, to folding clothes, to making art,…
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Well Below Average
I got results from my assessments taken by the neuropsychologist. My mother went with me to take notes, and that was a real blessing. The doctor explained it quite thoroughly, and gosh darn if he wasn’t looking into my soul. I know he is an expert on the brain, but he made observations of my…
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“Correct!”
If I wasn’t on medication, I’d be manic. I can feel a few symptoms creeping in – pressured speech, hypersexuality, feeling happier than usual, staying up late. The last time I wrote, I was discouraged when talking about my memory issues, but now I feel peaceful. The calmness that’s come over me is occurring because…
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I’m One of Them
I am too embarrassed to come here. I would have to tell you about a moment I was at work, holding the hand of a young child. I looked down at him and his name was gone. From my brain. I had just asked his teacher less than two minutes ago what his name was.…
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Older Collage
I am not liking any of my current work, so I am posting some older collages and assemblages to remind me that I used to like my work. So I accidentally posted this to Moody Paper instead of my art site. I will just use this post to talk about it all. I have not…
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I Made It!
I usually wake up each morning with a sense of dread that I just have to battle in order to get on with my day. I haven’t had that on my new medicine. I also have more energy, which is very welcome. It’s at a normal level, whatever that is, so it’s not hypomania. Another…
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Without a Trace
It’s been four days since I stopped taking Olanzapine per doctors orders, and I have been only on Vraylar and Prozac. I had one more sleepless night, but fell asleep the next day, so it didn’t develop into hypomania. I have some time off now before my job starts in August, so I am making…
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Sleep as a Savior
Day 13 of my medication change: I have been sleeping well, and that is helping to keep me in the range of normal to mildly hypomanic. I usually wake up feeling normal and by 10:00am I am happy go lucky, singing and repeating phrases, and enjoying the extra energy. I even wondered if maybe the…
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Rapid Cycling
Day seven of the medication change: It’s becoming clear that I am having fairly rapid mood shifts over the course of a few days. Friday I was hypomanic and didn’t sleep at all, and Sunday I crashed and slept most of the day. I also forgot to eat. Today (Monday) I am hypomanic again. I…
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Hypomania
Something flipped the switch to turn on hypomania. I find myself singing, sweeping, dusting, and clapping. Just minutes before I was curled in my comfy chair with the doldrums, a sense of malaise wrapped around me like a blanket. Now I am clapping and singing “Black Water” by the Doobie Brothers. Over and over “Mississippi…
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