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Vulnerability?
I made a very novice video about bipolar and creativity. I was going to post it to my social media accounts, and while there are compelling reasons to share, I am mildly manic, and it’s best to keep to myself. My version of shouting from the roof tops, which I desire to do when manic,…
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Seeds of Change
I’ve been bipolar stable for a month now. I’ve been alcohol free for ten days. I’ve felt a shift in the way I approach things. I am treating my body to a healthy way of eating, and gentle movement. I’m honoring friends I have lost by behaving in ways they would be proud of. I…
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Goodbye Dr. B
My psychiatrist, Dr. B, is closing his practice. I have been working with him for eight years, and I have both appreciation and sadness to contend with. I feel he has guided me well, and gone the extra mile to assist me in all of my mood states. I did this painting with him in…
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I’m Afraid of Color
I have a confession. I am an artist who is afraid of color. Not just in my art, but in the way I dress and decorate my home, and other places I haven’t discovered yet. It is an odd feeling to realize and admit that now, but that’s the first step to getting over “beige…
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Recovering
There’s a tingling on my back that comes and goes; sometimes it moves to the right side of my head. My mind tells me it is a giant spider, but I just laugh and assume it is a side effect of my medication. I’ve been making a lot of art; I have three pieces in…
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On the edge
Today I discovered when you are bipolar sick, time can stretch and slow down, and this is not a good thing to have happen while you are driving. All of a sudden the sounds from the music you are listening to crash together, and it causes a dizzying experience, so you have to just narrate…
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The Forgotten
The art of neglect from my produce bin, I present to you Potato Heart. Something’s happened. It knocked me so hard off my feet that it hurled me into a bipolar mixed state that I remain in today. Three weeks of energy, irritability, deep sadness, sluggishness and intrusive thoughts and images. I functioned. I drove…
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daniel’s hope
Yes you will grieve forever. Not as a life sentence, but as a love letter you keep writing. – Jameson Arasi I want to share this quote on my friend’s page on Facebook, but I feel it would be too intrusive for his family. They are grieving, and we all have our own path and…
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Please Come Back
It’s been a while. Hello. I wonder how you are. I’ve been wondering how I am, too. I had to take extra medication to curtail a mania that I felt coming on, and it has dulled my emotions, slowed down my body, and delayed my heartbreak. When I was manic I started an etsy shop…
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Puddle Jumping
It’s not raining outside, but I am having a “jumping in puddles” kind of day. For me that’s when it feels like a switch has turned on and I find myself actively moving through my day with sheer happiness. I am jumping from one activity to another, from sweeping, to folding clothes, to making art,…
