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I’m Afraid of Color
I have a confession. I am an artist who is afraid of color. Not just in my art, but in the way I dress and decorate my home, and other places I haven’t discovered yet. It is an odd feeling to realize and admit that now, but that’s the first step to getting over “beige…
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Recovering
There’s a tingling on my back that comes and goes; sometimes it moves to the right side of my head. My mind tells me it is a giant spider, but I just laugh and assume it is a side effect of my medication. I’ve been making a lot of art; I have three pieces in…
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On the edge
Today I discovered when you are bipolar sick, time can stretch and slow down, and this is not a good thing to have happen while you are driving. All of a sudden the sounds from the music you are listening to crash together, and it causes a dizzying experience, so you have to just narrate…
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The Forgotten
The art of neglect from my produce bin, I present to you Potato Heart. Something’s happened. It knocked me so hard off my feet that it hurled me into a bipolar mixed state that I remain in today. Three weeks of energy, irritability, deep sadness, sluggishness and intrusive thoughts and images. I functioned. I drove…
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daniel’s hope
Yes you will grieve forever. Not as a life sentence, but as a love letter you keep writing. – Jameson Arasi I want to share this quote on my friend’s page on Facebook, but I feel it would be too intrusive for his family. They are grieving, and we all have our own path and…
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Please Come Back
It’s been a while. Hello. I wonder how you are. I’ve been wondering how I am, too. I had to take extra medication to curtail a mania that I felt coming on, and it has dulled my emotions, slowed down my body, and delayed my heartbreak. When I was manic I started an etsy shop…
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Puddle Jumping
It’s not raining outside, but I am having a “jumping in puddles” kind of day. For me that’s when it feels like a switch has turned on and I find myself actively moving through my day with sheer happiness. I am jumping from one activity to another, from sweeping, to folding clothes, to making art,…
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Well Below Average
I got results from my assessments taken by the neuropsychologist. My mother went with me to take notes, and that was a real blessing. The doctor explained it quite thoroughly, and gosh darn if he wasn’t looking into my soul. I know he is an expert on the brain, but he made observations of my…
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“Correct!”
If I wasn’t on medication, I’d be manic. I can feel a few symptoms creeping in – pressured speech, hypersexuality, feeling happier than usual, staying up late. The last time I wrote, I was discouraged when talking about my memory issues, but now I feel peaceful. The calmness that’s come over me is occurring because…
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I’m One of Them
I am too embarrassed to come here. I would have to tell you about a moment I was at work, holding the hand of a young child. I looked down at him and his name was gone. From my brain. I had just asked his teacher less than two minutes ago what his name was.…
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