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Kicking and Screaming
I just want to feel the sunshine on my face. It’s been a little dark where I’ve been hiding. This is the first time I’ve really heard an inner child screaming, “I’m not going in there, you can’t make me!” so I knew it was exactly what I needed to do, while at the same…
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Hypomania
Hello friends! In my last blog post I talked about closing up my ribcage so nothing would fall in, but indeed something did! Hypomania floated in! I found myself on a cleaning spree, which is common in hypomania and very uncommon for me! I was sweeping and mopping, scrubbing and dusting with a passion. I…
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Ribcage of Reason
I have grown impatient with myself. My obsession as of late is bipolar memoirs. I was able to take a break for two days, and my anxiety skyrocketed. I took to amazon, even though I said I would go to the library; I now have in my possession two more bipolar books, one that I…
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Sober Songs
I wasn’t prepared to be split in two. I didn’t expect the irritability and anger “You want to do what? You announced that you want to be sober? What did you go and do that for?” It was nearing our dinner time, and I’d already made it past 4:30, when I usually have my first…
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I Found a Gem
I was searching Youtube for Natasha Tracy’s videos and came across the podcast “Wellbeing with Jack Hodgins” which delves into topics on physical and mental health. There are several podcasts on bipolar, and I listened to two of them today; Natasha Tracy’s, and Terri Cheney’s. I found them both very informative and relatable. Teri Cheney…
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What a Fool Believes
I have been fooling myself. Even though I write a blog about bipolar, read memoirs about bipolar, take my medicine daily, I still sometimes question if I have bipolar all that much. What does that even mean? I think I’m not as bad off as other people. I have recently come across the concept that…
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Lemonade and ECT
“His laugh is made of porch swings and lemonade.” That’s one of my favorite lines from Augusten Burroughs memoir, Dry. It put me in a place of lazy summer days, just like the one I was having today, where I could spend as much time as I wished reading. Burroughs calls his book a memoir,…
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Hidden Letter
Hide and Seek! I’m looking for you, but you are very hard to find. You’re folded up somewhere, waiting to be discovered. Three lined notebook papers, hand written. I just want to see your words, since I will never see you again. You were right you know, all those years ago, that wasn’t the best…
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Bipolar Childhood
Terri Cheney, the author of Manic, wrote a second book, the dark side of innocence, about what it was like to grow up bipolar. After she wrote Manic, Cheney received many emails from parents with questions about what her childhood was like, at what age her symptoms started, and what it was like to be…
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Letting Go: Autism
I am letting go of a gathering of like minds, a group that I created eighteen years ago. A place where people with autism and their loved ones could gather for friendship, solidarity, comfort, compassion and lots of fun. It started out as a question, and a search for others who may have the answer,…
Moody Paper 