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Polar Warriors
There are times in life when you stumble across something in a haphazard way, and it turns out to be an inspiring moment. This is true for my discovery of Polar Warriors, the videos site belonging to Robert Whittaker. In his video “7 Milestones of Bipolar Disorder,” he says so many things that I relate to, that…
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Calm and Chaos
These are the crazy times right before winter break! I am sitting in the center of calm as the chaos of the classroom swirls around me. Even though it is hectic, there are moments of delight throughout the day to remind me that I love working with children. My mood has shifted considerably as I count down the…
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Wall of Words
Day 1: Today as I was driving to work, I realized that I wasn’t really focused solely on the driving, but paying attention to a wall of words cascading through my brain, a voice in my head that came in loud and clear. It was telling me that I am terrible at my job and…
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Manic Remains
Once when I was manic I climbed into the closet under the stairs and started sawing away into the side wall where there is space under the stairwell, to create a tiny room. I cut a square opening, and discovered that there wasn’t quite enough space for a room. But I created a great place…
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Crying Gets the Sad Out of You
I don’t remember my dreams anymore. In college I kept a dream journal, and sometimes I would remember two dreams a night. I would write them down and read about possible interpretations, use them to inspire my art, and ruminate over their meanings. I suspect the medication that helps me sleep really well also is…
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Stop Dragging My Heart Around
“You still love me, don’t you?” That was a question a friend asked me via facebook messenger this week. I was taken aback, as he was in the midst of telling me about a woman he was very interested in, and usually he does not focus on me at all during these conversations. I responded…
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Three of Me
There are three of me, at least. The one that floats just above, who hears voices, sees things that aren’t there, and sends down the songs to loop in my mind. She likes to spin in circles, stirring up thoughts so they mingle with one another. She loves to spend money, laugh loudly, act boldly.…
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Beauty in your Madness
I haven’t been able to write lately. I can’t find the words to describe how I have been feeling, and it seems that it doesn’t matter anyway even if I could. That is my anxiety talking, it has been swirling in my brain and taking up space. Thoughts run parallel to a song I invited…
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Me and ECT?
I remember the fireflies. We would sit on the steps of the porch and watch them light up. Collectors we were. Of fireflies, buckeyes, and hail. They were, for now, temporary exhibits on the dresser, next to grandma’s silver mirror and brush. A row of jars on display for our friend Elena to examine and…
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Julie Fast’s Health Cards
Julie Fast’s Health Cards will be out in a new addition in the Fall. Julie is taking a break from social media until August 1st so she can work on her updates to the Health Cards. I am so excited that this tool will be updated and available for people with bipolar. I have used…
Moody Paper 