A bipolar mixed episode has come on very quickly. I was feeling depressed this morning. The dog wanted to take a walk at 5:00 in the morning, he is such an early riser! So we did that, but then I went back to bed and slept until 11:00am. I could feel the weight of depression, and I worked hard to make it lighter. I got up and had a cup of coffee that my husband made, he is always so helpful for my moods, having him around keeps me much more even. I told him I was feeling a bit of depression coming on, and asked him, “Would you be mad if I just went back to bed?” He said no, so I slipped back under the covers, but somehow within the next five minutes I found the energy to bolt out of bed and take a shower. I knew that would be best for my mood. I played a little game with myself, I promised I could take a shower but didn’t have to blow dry my hair, and I decided that was a good deal, so I went for it.

After my shower I felt a little better, but was teary eyed, which was unusual for me. I typed up a message to my psychiatrist letting him know the shift in my mood. I am hoping he will adjust my medication even though what he really wants me to do is find a less stressful job.

I am going to wait until after work tomorrow to go grocery shopping. I don’t seem to have the right frame of mind to push myself through that today. Who knows that could change. I do not have an appetite, which is also unusual. My mind is racing with thoughts, so that is the manic side I can slow down by writing, so I will probably write notes to myself for a little while so I don’t write a nonsense novel over here! I hope everyone’s day is delightful. Take good care of yourself!