Some days are just not going to be as bright as others. And that’s okay, because we never give up. We’ve had dappled sunlight three days ago, so I will reach back to remember those afternoons. 

I had a lapse in my sobriety. It started with making a hot toddy for my congestion, which has whiskey in it, and lemon and honey. Then three days later, two glasses of wine. Then the day after, I drank wine like it was water, four glasses very quickly and I got sick that same night. The getting sick motivated me enough to go back on the wagon. I will celebrate that I made it to six months sober, and just start again. Never give up.

I’ve had a song on loop in my head entitled Valarie, and below I will post the version that brings me out of the doldrums because everyone on stage looks like they are having so much fun. And you get to watch talented, beautiful women sing, and you can’t beat that. You can go 52 seconds in for the best viewing, they are just playing around on the instruments before that.

I tell myself I am not going to beat myself up, I will just keep going. I don’t know when I will get the song Valarie out of my head. It has been there for a week, I have been singing it around the house, it is the glue keeping me together. In another life, I am a beautiful woman singing on stage. In another life. It could still be this one, I tell myself when I am strong.