Today I am experiencing a burst of energy, and some psychomotor agitation; I am clapping, and singing, and doing household chores, I simply cannot sit still for long or concentrate on reading. It started this morning like a light switch that just turned on, and off to buzzing I go. 

My husband is playing the guitar and singing, which is perfect for this mood, I am very happy and dancing. This is usually a precursor to mania, so I will just lie low and keep to myself, dance in my own room, and not go shopping online or in person. 

I must admit it is nice to have some energy again, it has been a long, long time since I have had motivation and energy to do anything. It has been an uphill battle of talking myself into every little thing such as taking a shower, getting ready for work, and every step along the way at work, and it is exhausting. Maybe this is just what “normal” people feel, I think I remember a feeling like this in the past, when it wasn’t difficult to do every little thing. Where I didn’t need an internal pep talk just to get through every action of every day.

I did need to communicate with my ex husband, and I sent a four paragraph email, which was cordial, and I guess I ran at the mouth a bit, nothing dramatic, all just details we needed to work out. I do feel like reaching out to others, which is another indicator of mania on the way, I am usually not sociable, I am very much an introvert. Thus the need to keep to myself and let my husband bear the brunt of all my chipper (and hopefully not too annoying) demeanor.

Time to put on music and fold some laundry. I hope you have a delightful and sun shiny day!