Pressured Speech

April 3, 2024

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One of the things that happens when you are manic is that you have pressured speech. That means and intense desire to talk about anything and everything and the first thought that comes into your head, unfiltered. Sometimes, that translates for me into pressured writing, once I have bored or annoyed all the people I have been talking to.

First I would like to say thank heavens for medication. If it wasn’t for medication I would already be trying to spend thousands of dollars on a new project to become the next little bipolar darling. And by that I mean I had in my head to hire Natasha Tracy as a consultant to help me navigate social media to become more visible to people with bipolar, so I could reach a wider audience. And while I think it is a great idea, I think I need to limit my spending and should I go to her, I need to put a cap on the amount that I could ask for her help.

That is my big project that mania has in the works for me. If I had lots of money, it might be reasonable. If I wanted to “come out” as bipolar it would be reasonable. But I am not yet ready to come out on Facebook and other platforms so it is definitely premature. But my slightly manic mind is telling me that is exactly what I need to do. Scream from the rooftops “I am bipolar” and get this blog into the right hands. I love those who are already following me, they have been my saving grace, and they have offered so much encouragement, and I love what I am receiving from them just as is. But I also have big dreams.

And a girl can dream, right?

6 responses to “Pressured Speech”

turtlewords

Apr 4, 2024 at 10:55 am

I had a dream that my little decluttering blog could inspire people that are on the mild end of the spectrum, or have ADD/ADHD, or that are tired of seeing only heterosexual moms or dads writing about decluttering.

Finally, I realized the amount of work to do something like that was too much for me. I didn’t want to have ads, but if your blog gets big (mine never did), the hosting costs will start getting higher, then you need something to pay those bills. (Ads, digital downloads, courses, etc.)

To get attention needs constant social media postings, and more and different content. There are tools to help with all of it, and often they start out free, but it is a lot to learn. And video gets so much more attention now.

Sorry for the cold water – this is my experience.

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1. Moody Paper
  
  Apr 4, 2024 at 5:59 pm
  
  I appreciate your insight – I didn’t know any of that, so you have helped to slow me down and give me much to consider. Thank you!
  
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Anonymous

Apr 4, 2024 at 12:53 pm

Your self-awareness is truly wonderful. Yes, thanks for medications. I am also grateful for them every day. Keep up the great work.

Maybe the project on a smaller scale?

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1. Moody Paper
  
  Apr 4, 2024 at 6:09 pm
  
  There are things I could do on a smaller scale. I could dream about publishing an article in a bipolar magazine, and take steps to make that happen. I can follow more bipolar blogs and actively comment on them.
  
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Christopher Marcus

Apr 5, 2024 at 8:52 am

Don’t hire someone like that yet, yes. Not before you feel readier to act on whatever advice they will surely dish out.

As for me, with something like 20 dead blogs in my cellar I am probly not the best to give unsolicited advice. But the i that there is also the lesson: never give up. Who knows what the first blog I started in 2004 could’ve evolved into if I had kept going forward?

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1. Moody Paper
  
  Apr 5, 2024 at 5:51 pm
  
  You hit on an important point – I’m really not ready yet, and it will be a while before I am. So I will just keep plugging away and set small goals. Thank you for the encouragement to never give up!
  
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