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Within Reach
A reader let me know that she tried to post a comment, and word press sent an error code that this comment couldn’t be posted. I apologize if you put effort into writing a comment only to receive an error message. If you want to touch base before I figure out what’s preventing comments from…
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Life is Not Over Yet
My brain broke today and I had to piece it back together every few minutes, which is exhausting. When I am in overwhelm, words do not come easily to me, so communicating is excruciatingly difficult and I just stare into space. I welcome other peoples words, as I don’t have any that come easily. Yet,…
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Hypomania
This is the best description of hypomania that I have seen. SchizoKitzo takes you on a journey through her mind while in the midst of euphoric hypomania. She has rapid speech, excitability, and an irritation that everything is too slow. She is enamored with music that has a really fast tempo, and she recognizes that…
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Art Again!
I am making art again. This is a work in progress, with the working title of “Trying to Get Comfortable.” I use oil sticks which are very messy, and I love it! Once this dries I will go in with paint and refine it. I am just so happy that I didn’t give up on…
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I Quit
He’s taller than me when he stands on the bench, and he takes joy in jumping into my arms, wrapping his legs around mine and smiling his big smile. The problem is he is too big for me to hold. I am losing my grip as I say to him firmly, “feet on floor.” He…
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Ten Dead Dogs
When you are gone I turn on different lamps. I watch documentaries, and eat foods you don’t indulge in. Lasagna, quiche and cherries. I dare to listen to my own voice. She feels for the families, you decry the murderers. I am reaching between the bars, and playing see-saw with a young girl on the…
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Confessions
I tripped over a kindergartener and hurt my knee. Hazard of the profession. The kindergartener made out okay, just a few tears, then “Oh look, computer!” And all was forgotten. I’ve been using harm reduction with regards to my drinking and it is going better than expected. I have many days of the week where…
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Broken Brain
Two days ago my brain broke. It just refused to do what it needed to do, and I ended up doing nothing. I can’t do nothing and still be good at this job, so I have to figure out how to keep my brain from breaking. At first, I was hanging on until the end…
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Art Images at the MET
I got the job that I interviewed for. I will be working as a teacher’s aide with non-verbal children with autism. The size of the class will be new for me, there are sixteen students. I am used to having about ten or twelve. The principal wanted me to understand that it is a challenging…
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Leaving a Mark
I don’t know what to write anymore. I am afraid. I don’t want the truth spilling out everywhere, in places that I can’t contain it. I am forever just cleaning up messes from the things I do and say, from the things I am too frightened to do or say. And I’m not even manic…
Moody Paper 